the last sin
  pale ashen sky
a bleary eye
clouds of recurring screams...
i am a zoo
  an octopus leviathan
tentacles into an ocean
of unformed emotions...
syphilis and love  
  syphilitic pall
stifles the clear blue
i contort...
shell and pearl
  amidst highs and lows
in life's ocean flows
a shell peony-mouthed...
i am an unmarried mother
  fed on stings
of barbed milk morality
my child-plankton...
the lovers
  cell upon cell
bridge of their union
hung on the pillars...
  ogre of age
and time cavil
at a warm picture...
the young today
  innocence thaws
at the altar
of ambition...

(The Alchemy of Desire)

Take dollops of richly lived lives
Of you and I
Of today and over the centuries
Mix them with a sea of emotions
Rough and steady
Comforting and cataclysmic
Churn it in a cauldron
In the Alchemist’s laboratory
And let it brew
For years
Then one bright and shiny day
Take out the liquid
And let it pour
Pour from the skies
Pour like heaven
In nooks and crannies
On trees and houses
Pour onto the turgid keys
Of your Brother typewriter
And see it transform
Words dreams lives emotions landscapes
And the very nature
Of philosophical inquiry
Then type like hell
Like a naked mad man
Create a woman
Call her Fizz
Fall in love with her
Make wondrous love with her
Write a story
Her story and yours

An epic female character
In modern fiction
A livewire
A poem of a woman
An everyday woman
That has broken
Through the mould
A modern-day Tess
With an edge
Not a tragic heroine
But a woman with balls
Of steel
Earthwoman Nightwoman Skywoman
Springer of magic
When she lies on a sheet
It becomes alive
And begins to throb
With yearning
And dare you try
And unravel
The alchemy of desire
Giver of unconditional love
Lover of inexhaustible passion
Conjurer of tricks
Planter of trees
Keeper of First Things
Inspirer of titanic tales
A woman extraordinary
Primal force that fires
An insight
Into the order of longing
Ageless undefined

Alchemist you took
The lead of philosophy
And spirituality
Erotica and history
Mysticism and art
Mixed it with
Your life story
And turned it
Into sheer gold
A goldwoman
A journeywoman
On an erotic odyssey
That leads
To a spiritual transformation
The alchemy of desire
Is to be felt
And lived
Not to be deciphered

"Sex is not the greatest glue
Between two people. Love…"

26 September 2006