the last sin
  pale ashen sky
a bleary eye
clouds of recurring screams...
i am a zoo
  an octopus leviathan
tentacles into an ocean
of unformed emotions...
syphilis and love  
  syphilitic pall
stifles the clear blue
i contort...
shell and pearl
  amidst highs and lows
in life's ocean flows
a shell peony-mouthed...
i am an unmarried mother
  fed on stings
of barbed milk morality
my child-plankton...
the lovers
  cell upon cell
bridge of their union
hung on the pillars...
  ogre of age
and time cavil
at a warm picture...
the young today
  innocence thaws
at the altar
of ambition...

Elusive closure 

One fine day

You did go away

It’s still on the surface

Refusing to seep down

I was in Moscow speaking at a Conference

Planning a visit to Pushkin’s

And you decided to leave

Not even a note, a call, a goodbye, a hug

I have not forgiven you for the ultimate betrayal 

Since then I have been scurrying the galaxies

Seeing you in every stranger I meet

You transitioned over three years ago

But I don’t acknowledge your journey

Every man deserves a best friend

I cling to the memory of our childhood

Your belief in Gandhi and my espousal of Bose

Your habit of reaching every movie late

Your love for Tom and Jerry

And many trips we made to the Queen of Hills

Coffee at Whispering Windows

Remember our first Cabaret adventure?

Rites of childhood, passage to adulthood

Our morning walks to Pahari in summer vacations

Followed by cricket in the park

I look for you in many spaces you left behind 

I scour markets, bars, malls, cineplexes, here and beyond

You taught me friendship, you traitor

Now I hunt for you in nameless people

On busy days and lonely weekends

On high streets or in a flight companion crossing the Atlantic

In the game reserves of South Africa

Or in a Dutch restaurant on Champs-Elysees 

You ate the fire too soon.

6 September 2009