the last sin
  pale ashen sky
a bleary eye
clouds of recurring screams...
i am a zoo
  an octopus leviathan
tentacles into an ocean
of unformed emotions...
syphilis and love  
  syphilitic pall
stifles the clear blue
i contort...
shell and pearl
  amidst highs and lows
in life's ocean flows
a shell peony-mouthed...
i am an unmarried mother
  fed on stings
of barbed milk morality
my child-plankton...
the lovers
  cell upon cell
bridge of their union
hung on the pillars...
  ogre of age
and time cavil
at a warm picture...
the young today
  innocence thaws
at the altar
of ambition...


a huge monolithic half-done building in grey
a prosaic monochromatic symphony
linear narrow and stiff kissing the unknown
i find myself on its rooftop
the sky is almost nondescript rootless
still stark no birds on their migratory paths
the air hangs heavy like an interminable pause
i have with me two pretender paintings
of cubist picasso and surreal dali
can't seem to place them
anyway they are incidental to the story
or may be not you decide
i notice there is only one way to go down
a staircase in the making
beginning with wooden scaffolding inviting
surprisingly it doesn't appear intimidating
i climb down in the hope the concrete would follow
after a few steps almost ten may be fifteen
feet down the wood gives way the scaffolding collapses
and a deep black hole stares me in the face
i can't seem to go back and there is no way forward
i reflect for an eternity and then scream
not a guttural cry but one of feeble hopelessness
to my relief a nubile midsize girl
what an unpolished ungrateful way to describe her
along with a couple of faceless people
appears on the horizon the girl lowers herself deftly
with the ease of a professional gymnast
in the half-pit half-staircase and pushes me up
effortlessly her lithe body in supple supplication
i manage to climb up clumsily
and as a matter of gratitude begin to toy
with the idea of parting with one of the paintings
as a gift to the girl who came to my rescue
should it be picasso or dali?

( 15 July 2002 )