the last sin
  pale ashen sky
a bleary eye
clouds of recurring screams...
i am a zoo
  an octopus leviathan
tentacles into an ocean
of unformed emotions...
syphilis and love  
  syphilitic pall
stifles the clear blue
i contort...
shell and pearl
  amidst highs and lows
in life's ocean flows
a shell peony-mouthed...
i am an unmarried mother
  fed on stings
of barbed milk morality
my child-plankton...
the lovers
  cell upon cell
bridge of their union
hung on the pillars...
  ogre of age
and time cavil
at a warm picture...
the young today
  innocence thaws
at the altar
of ambition...


happy images of a robust past gone awry
then psycho dereliction and blurriness
same old tragic-comic soap
an inverse truman show
have i gone too far from self
not the kind of person i used to be
light flighty and unencumbered
now i'm possessed
pulled by puppet strings
of a sadistic play master
a pantomime
with a strange heaviness of being.

( 14-15 September 2002 )